rain

It feels like rain today.

puke neon green

I've been having strange dreams lately. The night before last I was flying through the ocean on the back of a dolphin the size of a whale. We were flying! It was in the night. It was exhilerating.

In other news I have a new car(new to me!) and a new apartment and now I'm looking for furniture to fill up my empty apartment. I found a sofa that is half way between neon and puke green. I matched it with a bright red round chair and foot stool, and a 50s looking dinnette set - glass top, silver legs, and bright red chairs. I don't know if I'll actually get the neon/puke green couch but I'm in love with the red kitchen set and the red chair.

I also want a cat and a bike, a cat to cuddle with, and a bike to ride to work so I won't have to drive.

I was thinking if I get the green and red furniture, then it would be neat to paint a huge traffic light - red green and yellow. And put it above the couch. The only problem with the couch is I think it would clash with plants and my apartment has alot of windows and I was envisioning lots of plants.

The world cup is starting this summer! I hope I can watch most of it. 4 years ago, Jeffrey yasskin called me to wake me up and I met him and Lindsey and some other people in the dorm's common room to watch the world cup final early in the morning. It was in spanish. We thought it would be much more exciting if the commentators were spanish. You don't get the same experience with english american speaking commentators. A goal is not the same as a GOAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAL!!!!! I was listening to the radio this morning and the NPR sports commenter guy predicted that if the US wins the cup then anyone left in the world who didn't hate us before will hate us then. Why? Because americans dont care about soccer, and everyone else does! We're ranked 5th in the world which means we have a decent chance of winning.


USA USA USA!!!!!!

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Why is it hard to say goodbye? For me, it is also hard to say hello. This blog is very "emo." That's not who I am. It's just what I end up writing for some reason.

I am too weak for my life. I started climbing up the face of a cliff, and it feels ok sometimes. But my muscles are shaking. I feel like I am falling. I don't know where I am going or why I am here.

I have a friend (his name is Lance) and he wrote in his online journal that he wants to do a silence fast, which means no communication for a certain amount of time. No movies, tv, music, talking, text-messaging, etc. A time for meditation and introspection. I think he is going to do it for 50 hours. I think I need that very desperately. I need to calm down. Take courage. Enjoy breathing. It's not so bad! Yeah, so I'm on the side of a cliff, my muscles are tired, I am being pulled downwards by gravity - that doesn't change. At least that is constant. But but but.... it's not so bad.

Take strength oh person. You're only a person afterall.

Silence now-



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