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Why is it hard to say goodbye? For me, it is also hard to say hello. This blog is very "emo." That's not who I am. It's just what I end up writing for some reason.
I am too weak for my life. I started climbing up the face of a cliff, and it feels ok sometimes. But my muscles are shaking. I feel like I am falling. I don't know where I am going or why I am here.
I have a friend (his name is Lance) and he wrote in his online journal that he wants to do a silence fast, which means no communication for a certain amount of time. No movies, tv, music, talking, text-messaging, etc. A time for meditation and introspection. I think he is going to do it for 50 hours. I think I need that very desperately. I need to calm down. Take courage. Enjoy breathing. It's not so bad! Yeah, so I'm on the side of a cliff, my muscles are tired, I am being pulled downwards by gravity - that doesn't change. At least that is constant. But but but.... it's not so bad.
Take strength oh person. You're only a person afterall.
Silence now-
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I am too weak for my life. I started climbing up the face of a cliff, and it feels ok sometimes. But my muscles are shaking. I feel like I am falling. I don't know where I am going or why I am here.
I have a friend (his name is Lance) and he wrote in his online journal that he wants to do a silence fast, which means no communication for a certain amount of time. No movies, tv, music, talking, text-messaging, etc. A time for meditation and introspection. I think he is going to do it for 50 hours. I think I need that very desperately. I need to calm down. Take courage. Enjoy breathing. It's not so bad! Yeah, so I'm on the side of a cliff, my muscles are tired, I am being pulled downwards by gravity - that doesn't change. At least that is constant. But but but.... it's not so bad.
Take strength oh person. You're only a person afterall.
Silence now-
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posted by Xgoose at 7:33 PM
4 Comments:
nobody knows where they are going or why they are here. anybody who does is faking it. nobody is strong enough for life, and in the end we all lose. but while you are on the cliff face you might as well swing mightily, challenging gravity to do its worse.
and in the end, who knows, maybe falling isn't so bad.
You're right. I love you. Thanks. :)
The silence thing was very helpful for me, and I think it could work for you as well. You definitely have the will and proper mind-frame to accomplish it. (Just don't beat yourself up if you make a small slip. It happens, and just work on not slipping again.)
On a completely different note, there's a house-warming party going on at my new place on the 17th. I really hope that you can make it.
Lance! hi. I didn't know you read this. I don't think I'll be able to make it to your house-warming party because I am in dallas... but if I am in Austin that weekend I'll definitely come.
Cheers!
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